No matter how.
I still Loving You.
This is what i always told myself.

To a tough person like you,seeing you caring about me.
I only realize how suck i could be,treating you as nothing.
Every each time i left you empty promises,you'll just do explanation,wipe off my tears and kiss me hug me telling me its alright.
Thanks for tolerating me throughout the journey we had been through,even its short.
thanks for the love you gave me,i couldn't imagine how can i be happy without your love.
I can't live, If I living without you
I want to pull your hand not to let loose.forever.
Thanks for loving me so much,really.
You sacrifice,You'll never tell me that.Just try to make me happy.
Every harsh sentence i've said,i've made,you take it as a joke and laugh it off.
You'll never get mad at me,you'll just keep it to yourself.
Eventhough you have issues,you never do complaining,never want to make me worry,you keep it to yourself and you still try to make me happy.
Eventhough i'm wrong,i make it worst.you apologize.this is what u always told me.
You favoring me like shit,but you don't care.
You try to fix everything right,eventhough i made it real bad.
I felt guilty,heart aching when you get hurt.when you disappointed on me.
I will never ever forget that scene in my eyes,which makes me truly awake.
You were by my side,watching each of every steps of me growing up,and now i've become someone else.
You said you missed the naive and the lovely caring girl,and i'm not that girl anymore.
I've became harsh,hard-headed and cold-blooded.I do criticize,complain and whine.always.
I miss her too,seriously i do.
Possibly you were discouraged to me. Now i just realized,i don't have to change,i felt happier being the old me.
I still can't do abandons the past.
I am sorry.

Give me sometime, i can do it.


p/s: i love you

i gotta say what's on my mind
something about us,doesn't seem right these days
whenever i try, somehow the plan is always rearranged
i dont even really know why

i tell myself, this time it's different
it's so hard but i've gotta change
i apologies about that again

.

darl.thanks your forgiving, i don't know i whether have the improvement or not. but what im sure is i really try my best, continue give me some time kay? =) i knew i really super unnecessary on "her" ...as usual, im girl mahh xD , in progress right now heee. hoped that u can unterstand me, i always do the comparison is because im afraid lose you, actually u are very good enough!!
muaa <3

love u always

i shoutn't let u know this
i supposed to write more only tell u soon
but i failed...
i already know i cant tahan to share with you 1
i whether is it right timing
i dont know what u feel after u seeing this
suprised?angry? =.=
i think is angry more hor..
sorry that what i've did..
i'll try my best wont let the temper control me
u're the most understanding me
what u said me is truth
and i wont do such stupid thing anymore
i knew i always sucpect and wondering u love and care me how much
i should believe u..
and have more confidence
i hope i wont mind her anymore
i mind cause i scared to lose u
i always compare with her is cause i scared i got something lose her
i scared i not good enough
first.i knew is my temper already
or mayb the way how i treat u? =*(
i really changed alot cause of you
last time..i wont ever care what my bf feeling
wont hear what his say
i just do what i want..what i hope
and now..i did not think to go clubbing without you
same as you..no mood
even i dint try before.
and i wont beg even once!
you totally changed me...
i not means temper la...
mayb im too anxious..
i think u'll know what im anxious for~
i dont know how to write or describe my idea and feeling
what i can think now is all these
anyway~
thx you darl
love you always..muacks

sorry darl =(

和你的关系变差了
非常的差
我做了一件连自己都没办法原谅自己的事
你骂得对～
从以前都现在.我都没认为自己错过
自以为万千宠爱于一身
今天我终于醒悟了
不是每个人都必须顺从我的，
不是每个人都必须被我牵着鼻子走的
不是我想怎样就怎样的
是我太野蛮了
原来我对任何人都是这样的
你,朋友,甚至家人
今天我终于都失声大哭了
好久没这样哭了～
我很无助
都太迟了吗？你对我已经没有爱了吗？
我很自私，是事实～
可能我抓得太紧了～明知道会有反效果
可是就是怕失去你，
我不喜欢想多多～
所以想到的东西就会没经过大脑说出来
我觉得每次说之前都要想很烦
可是我错了～可是每当我知道错了就只会去逃避
我没有变过，只是变得更在乎你
更不想失去你～
如果不爱一个人的话，我根本不会浪费时间去发他脾气,吵架
可是我知道我太过分了
我真的愿意改，我不喜欢现在的你，你也一定不喜欢现在的我
你说我需要时间，你也需要时间
我明白～
我尽快改，不要再这样了好吗？
对不起，我用错方法了
我还是如此的爱你～
不要离开我好吗？
=*(

☺

最近发生了很多事
我和你第一次去旅行，
很开心 可是最近我们的争执也多了
可能因为我们天天都见吧
应该是我错比较多吧， 我知道我很任性，
对不起
我任性都是因为太爱你了
虽然这理由很牵强 可是都是真的.
=D